herr hankmeister

In honor of my lack of producing photos for my 365 project, I will submit a few of my favorites from the past couple of weeks.

Me and my pal Hank just chillin'.

hills and valleys and shrimp

Hi

Sometimes I feel bad for not posting for awhile, but then I remember that no one reads this, and the only person I have to apologize to is myself. And that's dumb, so I'm not going to do that.

I guess I just haven't been ready to come back to this thing. Maybe I am now. Things have been okay for about 7 days. Maybe 6. Either way, I've been pushed in a new direction and it's okay. It's not the end of the world, my life isn't over, the things that have happened are over and done with, nothing to be done about them now. All I can do is keep pushing myself, keep forcing myself to move on. It's good for me, I think, this {moving on} thing. It's not about guys or dating or any of that part of life. Right now it's about me, about pushing myself to be who I want to be and to do the things that I want to do. Freaking took me long enough to get to this starting place - I won't say too much so I don't jinx it, but I'm feeling okay. Right now I'm doing alright.

I started waiting tables at this little seafood joint in town. I love it. It's great to be a part of a support system again. And even if they aren't helping with my problems in life, it's nice to know that I don't have to bus every table on my own, or carry all my own food, etc. We all pull for each other, we all do each other's work. It's a great place to work, great people to work with, I feel really lucky to be there for the short time I will be before I go back to school. The best part - working has helped pull me out of my deep dark hole or whatever it was that I was in. It's amazing when all I have to focus on is getting drinks, taking orders, making sure everyone has what they need to enjoy good food. Takes my mind off of other things and forces me to think about other people before myself, which is nice. I'm also making a little $$, another definite plus.

Not much else has been going on besides working lately. I'm leaving for New York in a few days! Fiddle camp in New York City with Mark O'Connor. PUMPED. :-)

I'm planning a trip out to L.A. to see my best friend for a weekend in August. I haven't made it out there yet, and it's coming up on his 3rd year at USC. Looking forward to more beach time and city life!

So, I guess it hasn't been as horrible of a summer as I thought. I got a new hat, fulfilled one of my secret dreams, and embarked on a few new life directions. Win.