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It's funny. Things feel almost exactly the same as they did one year ago. To the day.
Sitting at my computer, thinking I should be doing something else, being total strangers with someone I used to know so well... It's all a little too familiar. I'm not interested in reliving last fall.


But some good things have happened in the past few days so I thought I would share.

1. I have found my savior from this mess. It's called The Practice Room. Not even kidding. I have felt so out of control lately, but when I step in a practice room and do nothing but play violin like a boss, everything changes. I go from being a total wreck to calm and in control. It's kind of like the home base when you're playing a game of hide and seek - as long as you are there, you are safe. So, for the first time EVER, I am actually exceeding the practice requirements for a violin performance major. That's right, 3+ hours everyday.

2. I feel more like myself. Not sure if that's a good thing because I'm not at 100% yet, but when I'm with friends and just doing my everyday stuff, I feel like me. I don't feel like I'm trying too hard to be something I'm not. Not trying to fit in a box. It's nice to realize that.

3. Michael Buble has a new Christmas album coming out at the end of the month. Talk about exciting stuff.

4. I made a cake last night. It didn't exactly turn out the way I had hoped, but I still got to put sprinkles on it, so that makes up for it. And because I made a cake last night, I had to go to Walmart and buy my first frosting knife. Kitchen gadgets are my weakness.

5. I lost my debit card the other day, so I canceled it because I couldn't find it. And of course, two days later, I found it. But it's a good thing, because for awhile there I was participating in retail therapy, hardcore. Haha, so now I can't buy anything. Like I said, a good thing.

6. I'm turning 21 in a week and a half. Pumped.

That's all I got. Hopefully someday soon I will be able to think of more than six good things that have happened in the past few days.

Till then, here's to cake, sad songs, and good hair days.